In my years teaching at Saint Thomas Academy, there were times that I would catch students breaking rules. It was not something that I desired to have happen, however, it was part of trying to form the students to be good adults in our world. A majority of the time, when a student was caught, his first reaction was to deny any wrongdoing. He might respond by saying, “It wasn’t me!” or “I don’t know what happened!” or the most common, “Huh?”
I remember one time, however, when I was walking around a corner and caught a student doing something he should not have done. I confronted him and his reaction truly shocked me...he admitted to what he had done and said that he would accept whatever punishment I gave him. Truly, I did not know how to react. My mind was racing as to how I should respond, and I finally settled on just talking with him briefly and sending him on his way. This boy clearly knew that what he had done was wrong, admitted to it, and made the commitment to me to change. This is how our Lord works with us.
Our Lord truly wants us to being the best of ourselves. He wants us to be better than we’ve ever been. And this starts with admissions of our failures, both our failures to act and our failures of inaction. It is not easy for us to do, however, this is how we change, how we grow, how we become the best version of ourselves.
We admit our faults at the beginning of every mass as the priest says, “Let us acknowledge our sins and so prepare ourselves to celebrate the sacred mysteries.” It is during that time when we think about the sins we have committed through what we have done and what we have failed to do. We openly admit to God our failures. And, for the mortal sins that we have committed, we even have the sacrament of Reconciliation where we do not hide behind excuses, but simply admit to our sins.
We do this, as Catholics, not because we dwell on our sins, but because we know this is only met with forgiveness from Jesus Christ. Jesus’ entire mission is to bring forgiveness and peace to each and every person. We need only be willing to let our guard down, our excuses, our hiding and like a loving Father, God will bring us his mercy.
This Lent, let us all be ready to admit our sins and receive what is at the heart of our God...forgiveness.
Fr. Nels Gjengdahl